I can't do steady and consistent, and I can't not question everything. I've been lied to and misled too many times to take anyone's word for anything any more - only deductive logic based in objective fact and primary sources will do. Steady and consistent I can't do because there's FAR too much in this world to do and see to just... exist.

I rather wish there were a stupid pill I could take. I always envied Charlie in Algernon.