> called to account for why I didn't personally meet the goals that I was pressured into setting "for myself"

This is one of the most hostile things an employer can do to a person. I don't want them involved in my personal growth -- fuck allllll of that. I will grow when and how I want to, if I even want to.

IME this never-ending push for continual improvement discourages me when I inevitably fail to meet goals they want me to want.

I want to say "just leave me alone I'm speedrunning to early retirement" but that'll just get me in more trouble.